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Well this sucks! I gained 2.4 pounds this week. So I totally undid all the good I did last week. I'm so pissed at myself. I don't know what's wrong with me. Why do I always do this? Why do I always choose junk food over healthy? Why do I always seem to overeat? This week I used my period as a reason to overeat. And I shouldn't. I'm trying to do well.

...sigh

All I can do is try to do better this week. I start back to work tomorrow. I should be able to control myself more at work. When I'm working I seem to just eat what I bring with me. So if I bring healthier food that's all I'll eat. I'll just make sure I don't bring cash with me so I can't sneak up to the cafeteria for some puff wheat cake or something equally as bad!

Wish me luck.

Bad Day!

I had such a bad day yesterday - food wise. I don't know why... but every time I get my period I just have the urge to stuff my face. :( And yesterday - for some reason - I did just that.

I did get off on a good start today though. I got up at 5:45 am. (I forgot to set my alarm, but I still managed to wake up early) Then I went to Curves and worked out. I'm going to eat better today.

I did really good shopping yesterday. I found a tonne of nice work clothes. I had no trouble finding nice pants. (That's very rare for me). And I found some really nice tops to go with them. I'm all set for work next week.

When I go back to work, I'm going to have to get up at 5:30 am. This way I'll be able to work out before I go to work and still have time to get Logan ready for daycare.

It's been a while...

Well, it's been a while since I posted on here. And I have to admit that I haven't been doing too well lately. I've been eating foods I definitely shouldn't, but I have managed to control my portions.

After all that, I would have expected that I would have gained some weight. But to my happy surprise I actually lost 2.2 pounds this week! Portion control is a huge part of that. But when I saw that loss on the scale on Monday I couldn't help thinking, "Imagine how much I would have lost if I had eating properly!"

I'm going to try harder to stay on track this week.

I've had a lot going on in my life lately. I started my little boy at daycare last Friday. That was a lot harder on me than it was on him. Daycare was much easier yesterday though. I'm starting him off slowly so that we can both get used to it. I have to go back to work next Tuesday, and I'm not looking forward to it!

Today I have to go shopping for work clothes... ugh! I like shopping for clothes when I've lost a couple of sizes. I'm not at the point yet, unfortunately. Hopefully I'll be able to find some nice clothes that fit me well. And hopefully I'll have to go and re-buy my wardrobe in a couple of months b/c the clothes that I bought today will be too big! :)

Wish me luck shopping!

Not too bad...

I haven't posted in my blog for about a week. I've been too busy. A friend of mine flew into town to surprise me for my 30th birthday. I was so shocked and happy to see her. She stayed from Friday until Wednesday. Then on Friday, I flew out to visit her. :) During that whole time I wasn't eating my normal healthy diet. I was eating a lot of sweets and going out to a lot of restaurants. However, I was able to watch my portions and I never overate. In the past I would eat until I was bursting. This time, I was more conscious of when I was full and I made sure I stopped eating... no matter how tasty my food was. :) That's a big thing for me. In the past, I always seemed to have trouble stopping!

The best part of all this was what I saw on the scale this morning. I was actually DOWN 0.2 pounds. Which isn't a lot.. but when you consider my diet for the last week, that is amazing! It definitely helps me stay more focused. I am going to lose this weight! I can do it. AND I can eat treats every once in a while and I know that I'll be able to control myself. Control is a big thing for me! I'm definitely making steps in the right direction this time. :)

This is hard!

I have company over and we're eating sweets and going out for supper. It's getting very hard to stay on track. I am still choosing healthier alternatives and not eating as many sweets as I would in the past, but I am eating more than I would like.

I have to keep my mind focused on my goal!

I didn't go and exercise this morning. I was pretty exhausted since I didn't go to bed until 1 am and I have to get up to exercise at 6:30 am. I need to go to the gym before my husband has to leave for work.

I will go and exercise tomorrow!

What a Weekend!

Before I start talking about my weekend, I have to say that I lost 5.8 pounds this week! I did so great. I was really good. I didn't follow the diet all the time, but I didn't fall off the wagon either. I just restrained myself!

This weekend was my 30th birthday party. And I had the best surprise. My friend from out of town showed up at my party unexpectedly. I was so shocked. I swear that my jaw dropped open. The party was a big success too. There was a tonne of food, candy and cake. However, I ate a small portion of dinner and I only ate a little bit of candy and a small piece of cake. I did have a lot to drink, but I don't do that very often. So I was most impressed with how I controlled myself. Usually I use parties as an excuse to pig out!

I did get a lot of exercise this weekend. I was running around like a mad woman trying to get the house cleaned up in time and all the food cooked.

This last week was a really good week. I think it'll help keep me on track for this week as well. :)

I had the best dream last night!

I was out shopping for clothes, but I was at the weight I am now. When I was at the store some nameless good looking guy was helping me find clothes. He kept giving me clothes that were a regular size small. I said, "There's no way this is going to fit." He said, "Try it on anyway." So I went into the change room and took off my clothes and put the new ones on. And to my shock they fit. I looked in the mirror and I looked great. I wasn't fat anymore, I was at my goal weight. My stomach was flat! My arms weren't chubby anymore and my face was thin! I felt so happy. That happy feeling followed me out of the dream.

I think this new healthy eating lifestyle is agreeing with me!